who Am I?

It is with great joy I would like to take this opportunity to welcome and introduce you to our newest Blogger Audrey Botts. I have known Audrey for about 16 years. I have had the privilege to watch Audrey come to the Lord and grow into a strong woman of God.  I know you will be blessed as she shares and encourages you through her life’s experiences.  Please welcome Audrey Botts.  Thank you for joining us Audrey.

Love, Mavis

Who Am I?

By Audrey Botts

 

What’s your background?  A question I have heard most of my life.  Honestly, I really don’t know.  I have very little information about my birth parents.  My biological father was an immigrant from Germany and my mother was Native American or possibly First Nation from Canada. 

I was orphaned when I was around a year old and raised by a Hispanic family.  My life’s story is quite complicated and very hard to explain.   You have to really know me in order to understand.  Very few venture in that direction, ha-ha.   

Truth is… I had a hard time with my identity.  Not only in the mystery of my heritage, but in my personal identity.  Your personal identity is shaped by your early experiences in life.  It is how you see yourself.  

Some have good experiences, while others don’t have it so good.    Unfortunately, my early experiences were less favorable. 

During my formative years, I had developed a negative self-image from abuse I experienced in my childhood.  I was emotionally scarred by the very ones that were supposed to love me and shelter me.  

I hated myself and questioned why was I ever born?  I wasn’t a Christian so I sought the approval of man to define who I was.

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart”.  (Jeremiah 1:5)

Many people struggle with their identity. They base their personal identity on what others have said about them, how others see them, and label them as.  Your own opinion of yourself will also construe who you really are.

This is a big problem for many people who struggle just to fit in.  God says you are not defined by what other say about you or what you think of yourself.   You are defined by how He sees you.  God alone defines you. 

You are His wonderful creation and He loves you.  “He has identified us as his own by placing the Holy Spirit in our hearts” (2 Corinthians 1:22 NLT).   

When I became a Christian, Jesus pulled me out of my self-loathing pit of hell and embraced me with His amazing love.  I discovered who I really was in Christ.  I am ever so grateful for that. 

I experience His love and acceptance every time I attend church and I see the wonderful faces of all the lives He rescued from this evil world. 

Yes, we are all coming from different backgrounds, races and personal life experiences. When we come together to worship our Father in heaven; we become one, one family in love with the same Father.  

God sees the beauty in our ashes and restores us to who He created us to be.  So don’t forget! You were created for a purpose… a purpose you were destined to fulfill from the beginning.

I may never uncover the mystery of my heritage but I do know who I am in Christ.  I am a child of God.  I belong to His kingdom and His kingdom will never end.