Being Brave in the Midst of Defeat
By Vicki Molinari
The lessons were booked. Gear purchased. This Florida girl had seen snow only a couple times and the thought of gliding down a snow-covered mountain was very inviting. "Let's do it", I thought, so with great excitement and anticipation, I embraced the challenge of snow skiing. Decked out with every item to help me attain perfect form and the ability to make it to the bottom, I was in. Nothing would stop me, or so I thought.....
What looked so easy did not come to me as quickly as I had hoped. My long gangly legs had trouble controlling the skis so that I headed in the desired direction. Determined, however, I continued to pour into the art of skiing and attempt to put to practice all that the instructor was saying.
My mind was whirling with the phrases I was given, yet somehow I could not bring the info from my head down into proper action to my awkward body. Don't get me wrong, I was not the worst in my group of newbies, however, I was far from wearing a belt of skills that would carry me successfully to the bottom. With every fall, came more doubt that I had what it took to succeed.
The final blow came when I attempted to leave the lift chair. My ski tip hit an ice patch. My dreams of the sound of the snow whooshing under my skis were dashed. Instead, I was transported down on a stretcher by a medic. Humiliated, the desired victory became defeat. Instead of feeling brave, my fears captured my every thought, paralyzing me to the point of injury.
For the next several months following surgery, I played the day over in my head. I felt defeated. Doubt chased me down and said: You are a loser, you'll always fail. Just like you failed at skiing, you will never measure up in this life, letting everyone down who loves you.
It was a dark season in my life. My faith in God was stifled. I became crippled to the point of wanting to quit; life, family, ministry. All of it.
Have you ever been there? Your tank of bravery was full until fear emptied it dry? Your strength failed to the point of injury/defeat?
Truth: You don't have to live there!
The bible says in Habakkuk 3:19, “The Lord GOD is my strength [my source of courage, my invincible army]; He has made my feet [steady and sure] like hinds’ feet And makes me walk [forward with spiritual confidence] on my high places [of challenge and responsibility].” AMP
It took much prayer to lift me from that season. I learned that He is my strength. With Him, I can have courage to confidently face any challenge of life. He makes me brave!
Let me encourage you with one final thought:
Our success in life must NOT be based on us. We are weak but He is strong. There are no failures to God. Receiving the truth that He is with us and for us, we are free to do what He wants through us and we will be victorious!