The Ugliest

The Ugliest

By Jacqi Ballough

Ugly. Uglier. Ugliest.

Studying degrees of adjectives with my son, we found superlatives defined as “of the highest kind, quality, or order; surpassing all else or others; supreme; extreme.”

The best dinner. The most beautiful flower. The ugliest response.   

That was me. My response was the ugliest. Surpassing all else. Extreme.

I was fixing breakfast and packing my husband’s lunch for work when I asked a simple question only to receive a sharp, unexpected response. My man was a little cranky with an ugly cold and a very long day ahead. Instead of being quick to forgive and understand, I was hurt, offended, angry, and bitter all at once. His cold response deserved my cold shoulder, so I angrily left the room and threw a pity party!

All the while my son is watching and waiting for us to begin family prayer and our morning devotion. How fitting.

My husband prayed and left for work. I sat down for breakfast with our son, the Bible in front of me, and cried. I knew it. It was me.

I had to make a choice. I could humble myself and take the log out of my own eye or remain bitter, angry, and full of self-righteous pride all day.

One choice would heal while the other would destroy my family and negate Jesus’s death on the cross. Was I really going to act this way and then have a devotion with my son?

The Holy Spirit groaned inside of me. Thankfully, I listened. I picked up the phone, knowing I had 15 minutes to make it right before my husband would be unavailable for the next 12 hours.

“I’m sorry,” my voice quivering. “Please forgive me. I don’t want to begin the day this way. I love you.”

“I love you too and am sorry too. Have a good day, and I will see you tonight.”

After hanging up, my son says, “Don’t cry mom. It’s okay.”

“If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” 2 Chronicles 7:14

Lord, please forgive my ugly responses. Help me to be quicker to forgive offenses and ask for forgiveness. Help me to seek you in prayer before responding. Thank you for making me humble myself. Keep me humble, and thank you Lord for giving me a family who is quick to forgive like you.